Be Ok & 12 Days.

"I just want to be okay today." - Ingrid Michaelson. Ah, what an ingenious song, the lyrics say it all. Realistic optimism, I like it. A lot.

Anyways, lesson on love for the day: do NOT fall for someone in 12 days. 

It's no way to stay happy, sure many people believe in the "love at first sight" type of thing, but you can't honestly fall for someone without knowing them well, that's just TOO optimistic, basically ridiculous. I wish everyone would be happy and optimistic but this is reality and we need to be realists. Sure, let yourself go, trust your instincts but don't be stupid.

When you find that person you don't always just "know." Television has really ruined this reality for us, we always expect to just feel this electric spark immediately, or something. But you don't, hell, the person you're meant to be with could be your best friend, it could be the guy who you see on the metro, the guy in your art class, the guy you haven't met yet. Who knows? Don't worry about looking for love, when the time is right, it will find you. Have your fun in between, don't let yourself go though. Be honest and true to yourself, don't get into anything half-heartedly, but the way to stay happy is to know and have confirmation that it's all reality. Then my dear, you can live your freaking fairytale any way you like. Go for it, have a unicorn, dream in the clouds, fancy a trip to the moon, life and death together forever. You can have it all, but just make sure it's the right one.

There are so many different types of love, and sometimes we crave the type of love only a family can give us - unconditional, or the type of love a friend can give, you know the 'always be there' type of thing, but sometimes we just want to know we are someone's everything. I know this feeling we all want this attention. It's so intense and powerful, just like it is when you make someone your everything. In your heart of hearts, unless you know its legitimately the one, don't play games. And especially, learn from your mistakes, and from others.

For example, don't fall for someone who you hardly know in 12 days.

More, Run, Jumper.

These three songs have really touched me lately, brought my spirits up. The lyrics are beautiful, the music is soothing, and as T.Wells says, they are a "whisper in the dark" for the broken-hearted. 

More by Tyrone Wells has beautiful lyrics, light sounds and conveys the message that there is more to life, don't give up? Please? "I've seen the great heights, Reminding me, that I'm alive. I don't wanna die, I don't wanna waste another day, Or night, I know there's something more, Than what we're living for."

See? There is music out there, to make you realize this. (:

Run by Snow Patrol. It is an overall sad song. But one line got to me, and it's about being there for someone regardless of the situation, forced or chosen. "Light up, light up, as if you have a choice. Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear." No matter what, please know that SOMEONE will always be there for you, you know they've been there all along. Just smile that someone cares that much. OR smile because you know YOU will always be there for someone, regardless of their circumstances. Help a brother out. (:

Lastly:

Jumper by Third Eye Blind.

I do have to admit, I recently discovered this not so new song.  Listen to it for yourself.  (:

But the best lyric from it is obvious, "I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in. And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, I would understand." Haha that sounds not so nice, I know, just listen to the song. (:

Even when I'm broken and down, my music cheers me up. Smile sunshine, tomorrow's another day. Make it yours.

Weighted Work

I know that some people believe that their good deeds go unnoticed. I know you may lose hope and faith, believing that it is useless. I know the poem below is religious/faith oriented, but either way, anyone reading this should comprehend from this message that YOUR good work does NOT go unnoticed. Karma notices. You'll see. 

And truly, you'll get what you deserve, nothing less. Don't give up on me or on yourself.

Weighted Work

Beyond the luminous gates

Resides the Eternal and Everlasting

Frolicking with what ease.

Test you have passed, no you cannot

Be a sinner. For the weight,

The weight is what seems,

But seems on the terrain not

What exists on the scrolls.

Sacrificial deeds you have executed

Have weight in this world.

For you believe that He is righteous,

Your words are pardoned

And He welcomes you to his abode

In the never-ending sky.

Sinner's Salvation

So I've personally been gone for a while, doing my own thing. 

Too much has gone on. Poetry has grown on me and I can express my views on faith intertwined with religion and the merciful God. For the unreligious, think of God as fate and it's fairness in the end. I believe good people may seem sinful to themselves and life is not always fair, but the outcome is magnificent. Imagine yourself living the life you've chosen and who knows fate, God, life, karma, whatever one can believe in, it'll work with you. 

For the soul who believes it was worth less and for those who expect less but should know that everything happens for a reason. Mercy does exist.

Poem Numero Uno:

Sinner’s Salvation

Those lengthy columns glow

Golden rods of beauty doth

Entangle points in thrust

Coerced upon a sole wingèd throne

Thy king, watchful eyes and pardoning gaze

Look upon you with knowing eyes.

Who art thou and thou despised

To enter these gates, in form,

The king must look aside,

Across the ancient lands, mystique

Roams the terrain, particular

To heaven this beautifying glory,

For a sinner in passing to the cave,

The king’s nod or pardon

Beckoning and beseeching one through

The golden rods designed

Salvaging him from the talons of Purgatory

Faith.

"Faith: When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out int othe darkness, Faith is knowing that one of two things will happen...There will be something to stand on or You will be taught how to fly."

Dedication. + Navy Seals.

I'm writing this to anyone who needs it.

I have my fair share of problems, but instead of getting down and depressed, I try to channel my energy elsewhere (i.e. this message). Hopefully, by reading this you'll realize two things a) you're not alone and b) there are people who want you to be happy and are striving to give you hope.

On the topic of giving hope, a recent example, a MIRACULOUS example, dare I say:

The Navy Seals. How freaking courageous and epic. It's been all over the news, you all know what I'm talking about, I'm sure. How they rescued an American cargo ship and killed three Somali pirates successfully. They are true guardians of our nation, protecting those in need. What adroitness! What unlimited courage! What satisfaction!

Now, I want you to assume the position of the captain and crew of the American cargo ship. What could they have been thinking? They were seconds from death when this mission fell into place, literally guns held to their heads while the Navy Seal snipers clearly aimed and took a shot. A one time thing. Imagine the thoughts RACING through the captain and crew members' heads! How little hope must they have had? Now, they had just witnessed a MIRACLE. A miracle that should provide you all with hope, and as Americans, it should strengthen your trust in our government, it should give you hope that even in the most dire of situations, you are not forgotten. Yes, this was on a VERY big scale, but in essence the very idea of hope, is the same. 

Don't forget, the Navy Seals showed the world one of their many miracles. Show them yours-your lesson; have hope.

Trust Me Less.

"I know God will not give me anything I cannot handle, but I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much."
- Mother Theresa

I have hope that everything will be okay, but why is there a need to test my faith so much? Is it so imperative?

I guess it is. I guess part of that is faith. I'm almost sure of it. Because if I could cross those hurdles alone, hope would not exist, and neither would faith, because faith and hope are so intertwined. I know some high power is helping me, but I've got to gather all my knowledge from prior difficulties and put forth my best effort. HOPE- when even when you're doing everything wrong, it's that you did it with your best efforts with the intentions of doing it right- that's what matters. I believe it, I do. I do. I do. 

I would just like a break here and there. 

But I have hope for a better day.